This morning we talked about our story over the last few years. The hard. While the last three years have been filled with so much good, it’s been filled with incredibly unexpected hard.
There have been moments of stepping out in faith, and some of these moments turned completely upside down from how we thought the “plan” would unfold. There were moments that make us ask why. New parts of our story that are sad and uncomfortable and difficult to see how God worked.
Moments like losing Oliver in December. We realized this spring that with the urgency and shock of those few days and in the whirlwind of events, we had delayed processing this loss. Only over the last few weeks we have we finally begun to healthily work through the grief.
On this particular quietmorning, we found ourselves looking back at earlier parts of our journey. Parts of our journey when we could clearly see how God called us in faith and the result was much different. Parts that weren’t necessarily easy, but were easier to understand and see how God had so evidently worked. It’s so easy to look back and desire that ease, the clear picture of God at work.
Later, I was reminded of one of my favorite verses:
Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past.
See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
and streams in the wasteland.
Reading more context on these verses, God tells his people, "What I’m going to do in the future is even greater than the good I’ve done in the past." The amazing works God had done in the past will be forgotten because of the unprecedented things God is doing right now.
What a reminder for us! To stop looking back at the things God has done and hoping for that outcome. Those were good. Those are a beautiful part of our story. But even now, when it’s hard to see and emotions are thick and heavy, he is still working. It’s springing up before us. I don’t want to look back and grab for what God did in the past, I want to see what He’s doing now, even if it involves so much hard and sad. Even while I can’t see it today, I believe He is doing something new. A new growth that is working hard to press its way up from the soil. May I not miss it.